Playing catch up

So, it's been a couple of years, but it's time.  I'll attempt to catch up over the next few weeks.  It's a lot, but we'll get there.  

i am broken

A week ago, yesterday, I stood next to her bed holding my daughter.  Grace looked at me and said, "Her hair is getting so long.  It's like mine, she looks like me... like a princess.  We need to get her a crown Mommy."  The next day she left us. Memaw.
I pretended for so long that I would never have to live in a world that she wasn't in.  It was a dream.  
I remember the first breath I took after her last.  It hurt... it hasn't stopped yet.  There is a tightness in my chest that won't go away.  I am broken.  Maybe it will lessen, but i dont believe it will go away.  I'm okay with that though.  Because I know that I'm am lucky.  I feel like the luckiest of us all.  I am so unbelievably fortunate to have had the time with her that I did.  To have heard the stories, cherished the hugs, and felt the love.  And the love was intense.  It still is.   

Memaw,
I will miss you and love you with my whole heart.  Thank you for the rainbow.  I felt it in my soul.
XOXO,
Melissa

"Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over it became a beautiful butterfly."

Memaw’s Birthday

Happy 96th Birthday Memaw. We love you lots!

No! I want to be a princess

Ever since Nanny bought Grace a pink princess dress for her birthday, it’s all she wants to do. So for Easter, the bunny brought her more dress up clothes, jewelry and tiaras. She loves it! It’s hard to put her in shorts lately, because all I get is, “No Mommy, I want to look like a princess.” And a princess she is.